Written on 9/6/10
I’m looking right at you, what is it that I see?
Nothing but the faults. I see right through me.
This parallel reflection, reminds me of the past.
The hurt and pain and selfishness, did I grow up too fast?
I can think of many ways, for I have done you wrong.
I’ve realized the value of my life, but did it take too long?
I was careless with my body, and I didn’t think things out.
I was living for the moment, I wasn’t one to doubt.
These scars that have accumulated, I used to never mind.
Though now all I feel is guilt, they are all my heart can find.
Through these translucent tears, I see them clear as day.
And every time he touches me, my pulse races when he gets near.
I’m ashamed for what I’ve done, but I can never take it back.
Over the years I have grown stronger, respect for myself is all I lack.